long live the car-crash hearts.
thanks for the memories



but this is definitely something to wait for... ;)

Patrick Stump from Patrick Stump on Vimeo.

Can't believe it's "over" though, it's definitely end of an era.

(And if there's someone who doesn't know what I'm talking about, then check this out )

It's been three weeks I know. And I know it's not sufficient to say that I've been keeping busy (which is true), and I do apologize for not updating more. Don't get me wrong, however; I'm not apologizing so much to anyone who's reading this journal as I am apologizing to myself. I promised myself to be more active with this as well as my website, and somehow I've succeeded to fail them both in the past weeks.

It's true I've been busy. Working and attending school ain't all that peachy or relaxing at all. And when I do have time to "spare", it's usually been spent by doing the dishes or cleaning the apartment, or then I'm simply just lying on my chouch watching movies because I don't have energy for much else these days (althougfh I have started a new book from my list finally!)

And without energy, there is no will-power to go on. Honestly.

Plus; I hate my friend. He's an ass. I'm just so fed up with him right now, with his constant positiveness and energy. For all I care he can go fuck himself. I just can't hang out with him these days. Not for awhile at least.

"Head like steel trap, wish I didn't,
I didn't, I didn't, I didn't, I didn't,
I didn't, I didn't, I don't...
want to be a footnote
in someone else's happiness.

Better and more elaborative post coming soon, or as soon as I have the energy / time.
Peace out.
 

My books to read this year. My goal is to read five books, and that's actually something I can reach, providing I work on it. Ideas and suggestions on books I should read are very welcome. This is just a list of books I've been meaning to read for months/years now, and the bolded ones are the ones I really will try to get to during this year.

Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
Ps. I love you by Cecilia Ahern
Kill Your Friends by John Niven
Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold (*)
Sex And The City by Candace Bushnell
The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde
The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams
Veronika Decides to Die by Paulo Coelho
The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
Just Listen by Sarah Dessen*
Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk
(* = started, but never finished)

... well there's to list a few.

I will definitely update this list as soon as I'll come up with more books to add on it. Also, like I said, any and all suggestions are welcome!  Thanks :)

Suggestions by others;
White Oleader by Janet Fitch
Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden
Stargirl by Jerry Spinelli
A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess
Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk
The Alienist by Caleb Carr


{edited on January 10th}

Wow. It's been a few days. Haven't been writing for awhile, been busy. Definitely an excuse I've been using a lot lately, but it's true... Mostly anyway.

Aside from working, I've been sleeping a lot too. I've spent most of the days this week at work doing my regular day-job and then coming home at 11pm (unless I go to a bar to hang out).  After that I've been mostly working on my website all night long, and going to bed not earlier than 8am, and then sleeping until 4pm, because work starts at 5pm. It's not really healthy, or even reasonable behaviour, but I just haven't felt like doing much more either. It's weird, really. I've been super tired and unenthuastic about everything these past couple of days. It didn't really hit me until today why that is.

I haven't been taking my medications.

I have a medical condition that I've had since I was born. It's where my thyroid gland doesn't produce enough hormones or whatever, and it makes me tired and apathetic. Well, I haven't been taking my meds, ergo I'm tired and don't feel like getting up until I really really have to. It hasn't worried me before but I could die (in the long run) if I don't take my meds on a daily basis. I can't even remember when I took my meds before today, and that's scary.

Anyway, put a reminder on my phone and moved the pill bottle next to my toothbrush. Should help, I hope. I can't go on like this for much longer. Right now it's 3am and I'm contemplating on grabbing a book and starting to read toget some sleep. Maybe I can even get up tomorrow at a decent hour (around noon-ish). I have lots to do tomorrow. Grocery shopping for one, and then I'm going to my friends flat so she can dye my hair. I'm completely useless with dying my hair myself, so she'll do it for me. After that I have a swedish essay to write and I have to go hang out with my friend who's coming back home from north. You know, that friend I mentioned a couple of posts back? 

Anyway, like I said I've been working on getting my website up and running again. I've coded the layout and validated my coding, but I still have a couple of things to write, like the 'about' site and put links there and stuff. Nothing major, it might just take me a while to do it with school starting and all. When I get it done, I'll be cross-posting my blogs there (or should I say from there to here), so I don't have to update two blogs, but I can get away with all this the easier way.

Well, I'm gonna go now to read the book. I need to get The Devil Wears Prada, finished so I can get the first book on my "to read 2010" list started. Which, by the way, I still have to write here, so maybe I'll post that too before I go to bed. Goodnight!

I just watched P.S. I love you, another movie I've been meaning to watch for awhile now, and to be honest; I loved it. I can see what all the fuss was about when it first came out. I laughed and I cried... and then I cried some more. DAMN that movie was loveable.I just can't get over it. 

Now I desperately want to read the book this movie is based on. I know I should always, always, read the book first... but I never do. I still haven't finished The Devil Wears Prada either even though I've been reading it for a few months. So now that I've seen this movie, the next book on my list is definitely going to be PS, I Love You by Cecelia Ahern

I should probably start reading more instead of just watching movies. Movies are just so much easier for me. I guess I'm trying to get off easy, a little too easy. Like I mentioned, I started a new job quite recently. Well, the job is at a movie rental place, sort of like the local blockbuster, but with not quite as big of a selection. Anyways, the advantages of working there is the movie rental is free, hence me watching a LOT of movies lately and kind of pushing the books aside... not that I was ever a big reader anyways.

So I guess my new year's resolution is to read more books. and finish at least five books that are not school related by the time year 2011 rolls around. I love reading, and honestly I don't know why I don't do it more often, so I'm going to start. Five books sounds like a piece of cake to most people, I'm sure, but with my hectic schedule I'm surprised if I can even start five books during this year, let alone finish them all. I should post that list somewhere here just to keep track of it. And maybe I'll even post updates in the future about my progress. Gives me something update about at least. So if anyone has ideas on which books I should read or check out at least, let me know? Any help is greatly appreciated.

OH! And and I switched my username!! So if anyone wonders who the heck is this heyemilia; Well I used to be crcrashhrt. I didn't want to start a new journal because I've had this same one for 3 years now and it has a lot of memories stored in it, so i just decided to buy rename token and come up with a new username. Why heyemilia? well... Emilia is my middle name, to be honest, and I guess it sort of came partly from "Hey Jude" by the Beatles, as well as a long story that also involves my email-address, which I'm sure no one is too interested to hear so let's just leave it that, shall we? Anyway, no longer crcrashhrt, but heyemilia. Hello world!